Fat, Obese, Overweight, Disgusting :c

Dear Tany So, you want to be skinny? I don’t blame you. You’re the fattest human being I’ve ever seen. I honestly don’t know why you let yourself live. I have a lot of work to do, so you’d better listen up and follow every single instruction I give you. Food makes you fat. Calories are your natural enemy. Think you’re hungry? Think again. You want to put something in that tummy of yours? Not while I’m here. Eating is for people with no self-control. You’re better than that, I hope. What defines us as people? Will power. Show some. Put down that fork. Do you really need to eat dinner? You can pass on breakfast and lunch, too. Look in the mirror. What do you see? Fat. It’s everywhere, spreading over your body like a disease. Why on earth would you need food when you have so much of it under your skin? Gluttony is as much a sin as it is repulsive. Let’s not embarrass ourselves. You know your friends and family? Forget about them. They will only try and stop us. They will get in our way and become the obstacles you fight to overcome, the distractions that hinder our progress. School and work aren’t important. Sure, you can spend hours studying if it’ll keep your mind off food. Are these the things that define us? No, we are defined by how thin we are. What people see when they look at us. What is the use having perfect grades and a perfect career if you don’t have a perfect body to match? Start being productive. Do something with your life. Read books about me, make a scrapbook about me, listen to music about me, look at pictures of skinny girls who love me. That can be you. You can be the girl who is tiny, who is worth writing a book about, worth being in pictures. Weigh yourself every morning and every night. Weigh yourself before you eat. Weigh yourself after you eat. Calculate your BMI everyday. You need to be in the category “< 18.5.” You need to be underweight. When you pass a mirror, check it. Stare into it. Frown at the saddlebags and love handles. Smile at the bones poking through your skin. We are almost there. You are not vain, you are insecure. Get it right. Chew gum until your jaw hurts. Drink water until you’re full. Do sit-ups until you can’t breathe. Starve until your vision blurs and your knees buckle, and then continue to starve. These are my commandments. These are the rules of the game. They mustn’t be broken. What if I eat, you ask? You take that obese and bulging body of yours to the bathroom and stick your fat finger down your fat fucking throat. We don’t eat. I’m your best friend. You need to know this. I will always be here, no matter what. We will fight, but you will always come back to me. Always apologize. And I will take you back every single time, because you are so pathetic I cannot turn away. I will never leave you, and you can never leave me. I’m the voice in your head. I’m the one who praises, and the one who punishes. When you are too small for your clothes, I love you. And when you put on a pound, I can’t look at you. Still, we are best friends. I am all you need. You wont be able to sleep. Fortunately, that gives you more time to work out. It gives us more time to bond. It’ll be hard at first, but you’ll get used to it. This isn’t going to be easy, but it’s a necessity. And lastly, remember that it is never enough. You are never good enough, never pretty enough, never miserable enough, never tired enough, never thin enough. Keep these things in mind. Follow my rules, and you’ll be fine. You’ll be skinny and gorgeous. Everybody will be jealous. You will be happy. You will be untouchable. You will be the spitting image of perfection. I am very glad you accepted me into your life. I look forward to spending every waking moment with you. Pretty soon, there won’t be a ‘you’ and a ‘me’ anymore. There will be nothing but ‘us,’ and isn’t that all you really wanted? You wanted to be skinny. Yours truly, Ana

El 1º de 10

Hola princess :D, tengo una buena i mala noticia al mismo tiempo, la noticia es qe al finn bajé un kilo, no comprendo como, pero ayer me pesé i pesaba 58 kg será el té rojo? o quizas el hecho de qe tomo mas agua... i eso hace qe me den mas ganas de ir al baño, en fin... no se.. eso princess.

Post 18 de Septiembre

Bueno, no se si saben, pero soy de Chile, i el dia de la independencia es el "18 de septiembre" i se hacen varias tradiciones i hay bastantes costumbres,... x ejemplo. se come asado de chancho o vaca, se comen empanadas de carne, anticuchos( con como brochetas de carne), choripanes ( pan con chorizo), i algunas ensaladas qe pueden variar segun el gusto de cada persona , y bueno se bailan los bailes tipicos, qe pueden buscar en youtube :D, se toman los siguientes tragos: Terremoto, Replica, Vino, Chicha, Pisco Sour, entre toooda la gama, pero esos frecuentan mas en estas fechas.
La cosa, es qe se suponia qe yo iba a dejar de comer carne desde qe empecé cn esto, i resulta qe ayer me obligaron a comerla, x qe no estaba comiendo nada, i muchos en mi familia se dieron cuenta :c, i me dieron un choripan qe me comi apenas, i me dieron 2 empanadas de pino ( de carne con cebolla aceituna, huevo cocido y pasas) i me dieron un vaso de terremoto, i casi mori wn, era tanto, no podia mas :c, baile harta cueca para bajar un poquito la comida, i hoy desperte media delicada del estomago, me siento tan mal x comer carne :c, siento qe es el peor error qe pude cometer, hoy comi papa cocida, i tome un vaso de jugo, y en la once tome té i comi 1 pan con palta para qe mi mama vea qe si comi, mañana ire a comprar te rojo, dicen qe es muy buen adelgazante ( ya qe es diuretico) i no seee. me ahogaré en agua i té, para poder adelgazar :c esto es muy dificil, pero de vdd qiero hacerlo i me creo capaz, vamos por los 50 kg!!

Dia 8

Hola.... bueno hace un par de dias exactamene 1 semana i 1 dia empecé a hacer dieta para bajar de peso, ia qe es lo unico qe qiero, nadie sabe, pero estoy dejando de lado un poco las carnes i ese tipo de alimentos, i he comido puras ensaladas y como atun i ese tipo de comidas, sere vegetariana, pero comere mas legumbres, dejare de lado un poco el pan, las carnes qe como son el jamon, pollo, pavo i nada mas, nada de vaca, nada de cerdo, hay qe empezar de a poco segun yo, i bueno, comer menos cosas con grasas o calorias, si qiero volver a pesar casi 50 tengoq e hacer un gran esfuerzo ya qe la ultima vez qe me pesé, pesaba 59 i fue horrible ver eso denuevo en mi, i cmo recien es 5 de Septiembre, aun hay tiempo hasta antes de la gira para comer sano i bajar de peso rapidamente i asi poder sentirme mas comoda con mi cuerpo, em... nada, he tomado muchisima agua. para justamente ir mas al baño i bajar mas de peso asi, no cmo azucar x mi problema a la insulina, trato de no comer cosas externas en el colegio, aunqe muchas veces me he fallado, pero no, ahora no, desde hoy lunes 5 de septiembre cuando son las 19:27 dejo de comer chocolates, dulces i cosas x ese estilo, solo comere galletas de soda, i avena quaker para qe tenga mas sensacion de saciedad, espero esto me resulte x qe la vdd es qe si era flaca, con ayuda si , pero lo era i qiero volver a eso, qiero volver a mi flaqesa, antes de la gira de estudio tengo hasta el 14 de diciembre para bajar min 10 kilos, eso por ahora, Adios